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Knowing - A Personal Observation at reaching the Big Six-OThis Bluestar .... A voice from the past ...... I only come here when I am driven ... as it were.....
I have been keeping track of all the stories, observations and teachings appearing in these hallowed pages.
They suffer great food for thought .. to such an extent, I stopped reading - I got confused and intimidated - I have to answer my own questions....!!
I am far from being even moderatley educated in the philosophical teachings I witness here. In terms of perfect awareness and conscious knowledge - on a scale of 1 - 100, I probably rate about 15 ... I am in awe at the awareness of some of the writers .. not all which I agree with .. but then without debate and without the need and requirement to lay one's own thoughts and attitudes alongside others is there is no other means by which we can determine our levels of sensitivity.
But more significant than sensitivity, "per say" .... is that indefinable Inner Knowing". That sense of wareness of the infinite and that we are truly of the "One God".
I have just turned 60 ... a magic number for some .. a rude awkening for others ... for me .... a stillnesss has descended. One has become aware of one's mortality ..... which implies an understanding of the glories yet to come and the absudity of many of the things about which we stress on this tiny lump of rock in the vast ocean of the cosmos. After a not untypical journey I seem to have come to a place of peace. I watch my family grow and trying to barnstorm many of the situations I have faced down the years, I sit alongside my friends and peers and exchange observations of the generations following on behind us ... and we say a prayer together.
What else can we do ..... but trust that God's plan for all of us is unfolding to the best of purposes as we each deserve and have contracted to before we "landed" here. It is the acceptance of this and the expulsion of unfounded fear that brings the peace I seem to have found.
We can all print stories, a million words of advice and guidance .. but it is the inate understanding that leads to the awareness of true humility and empathy that gives us each the strength to manage our fellow mans suffering.
Next year I go back to Africa, but this time better armed and prepared to cope with the conditions I will witness. I cannot bring about the changes I know are needed. I can only carry with me the Love of Our Lord to each individual I meet. I am only master of my own consciousness .... my own heart, only by example in my daily duties can I sustain any level of influence. No longer do I have illusions about changing the world ... that is not my destiny. But if I can offer hope or solace to just one person every day ... that is the best I can hope for.
So what does 60 mean to me ..... understanding my limitations and the knowledge that I am part of a plan, that I am important to God, that there are more angels and guides available to me to ask for help than I probably realise. That I have a purpose even though I do not know what that is and trust in Our Lord and the guides that I will be placed where they think I can serve best.
I have forgiven myself for unreasonble attitudes of people in my life now on the other side - I know they have a new understanding - I look forward to meeting with again and being true friends.
A few personal observations that I felt urged to lay before you- whether you agree or otherwise, consider them over simpistic - those are decisions for each of you who read this - you are the keeper of your own keys to your own consciuosness ... I unlocked my doors through quiet contemplation and a harsh appraisal of my own failings - with a litlle help from "The Main Man" ... of course ... No longer is each day a battle ... aprt from all the associated aches and pains of pre-dotage .....
I give you peace and light and the blessings of the Almighty .. be at peace in your your minds and hearts.
Go well amongst the din of modern life and be uplifted by the simple things and the wonders of nature
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